In various instances in my life I have started projects only to leave them unfinished. In my earlier days I had it decided that this was some type of curse and a great failing of mine. I have a multitude of things I want to tackle, but limited time or limited resources or a type of writer’s block that stands in the way of completion. This is still a failing of mine though it does not upset me as once it did. I picture the sand man coming to life out of sand or the picture above.
The conclusion that I have come to is that it is better to fail at a lot of things, but not to repeat the previous mistakes. Though, a more cathartic conclusion I have come to is that perfection is unattainable for us mortals. However over time I can make things better and more complete if I keep building on what I currently have and know and chip away at old imperfections. I can see this in books when they print a new edition of the same thing or in software when they try to make things better more functional and user-friendly. This is why I have adopted 1.0 or Beta in many of my programs as I can update them depending on the feedback, and I modify them to suite the individual so they are more user friendly. After all there is no perfect program there is only optimal variations differentiated by the user for desired results.
There is something great, motivational, something that can burn. It is a passion, a desire. It is something lacking and everyone wants it. It drives people, it directs them, it is a muse, and a light in the fog of life that steers. It is a flame and few people can light this fire, in some this fire is sparked, but then smothers itself because nothing is there to feed it. Sometime there are limited resources that help fan this flame. What I can tell you about this great something is it is there. You have to find it, you have to fan it, and when you see people with it you want to surround yourself with them because what they have will feed yours. For a general understanding of what this something is you can call it intrinsic value. It is what you find important, why you find it important how it consumes you. The hard part is there are things that can stand in the way of this intrinsic value. Walls that make themselves present people that nay say and suck the life from you. In my own career I see a lack of intrinsic value in education, partially because it is free and partially because no one set them up to see the value of education, and really it’s not education at all, rather the application of education. The utility of education is what gives it value, vocab and textbook are limited because they only hold information. What makes information beautiful is when it becomes a process and hardened idea. The problem with this passion and the flame in and how it consumes is once it becomes stagnant once it loses its nature of engulfing and immersing those around it. This passion becomes dogma and devoid of purpose it becomes hardened and loses its almost fluid and expansive catalyst, or viral tendency. People say “I have trouble with motivation.” or, I’ve also heard “What is the point,” ,and/or “why?” In my mind I have had the same questions. I struggle with motivation, but find that it is a matter of who you expose yourself to that will help you or directing your energy to completion. My reply to “Why?” is “WHY NOT!!!” Because when it comes down to it, intrinsic value, and passion are something you have to find for yourself. I don’t think “give a shit” can be taught it has to be learned.
I think this is also a good article on the subject